Live it. Forgive it. (pt2)

Physical, Mental, Spiritual.
Body, Mind, Soul.

Right now all three are being neglected.

Physically I am not looking after my body: movement, food, sleep, alcohol.

Mentally I am not looking after my psyche, my ego: living arrangements, personal space, history, storage.

Spiritually I am most nourished, but even there I am not looking after myself as well as I could. Daily practice, overt expression in speech and action.


And interesting that I am craving to work with my hands: rawhide, clay, stone, wood, glass. Craving to start dance classes.
My body is shouting at me loud and clear. I have been neglecting physical experience. My body is singing for use, for pleasure, for the ecstasy of movement in harmony: with material substance, music, another human.

Mentally I am putting myself through experiences which feed my ego's negativity and strength. I need to amend this soon and quickly.

And I need to find a way to make peace with it until it is practically possible to change it.

Which brings me back to the start. This is why I must get to know it. This is why I must explore the sorrow, fear and shame. This is why I walk into the darkness. To know it. To see it. To love it as part of me. Part of the beauty and the humanity of who I am.

Time for another soul quest ...

Where am I most afraid to go?
Then that is where I am going.

Live it. Forgive it.

I'm going down down down
I'm going down down down
I'm going down down down
Like Innana ...
                       (quoted from ALisa Starkweather - Going down like Innana from Daughter of the Earth - www.myspace.com/alisastarkweather)